The Last Drop of The Memories.

Chapter Three.

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The Last Drop of The Memories.


It's been a while since i spent my days being a stupid guy.

Entertaining all the sweetness in the memories i have.

Just for the sake of old times.

Just for nothing.


Now, i finally do realize.


It's not because i can't.

It's not because it's hard.

It's not because it's sweet.

It's simply because i just don't want to.


I'm grateful for what we have been through.

I'm grateful for what we almost shared.

I'm grateful for all the possibilities.

But, i'm not gonna spend the rest of my life stuck in the past.


I'm trying.

I'm trying to stop looking back.

I'm trying to start to looking forward.

Seeing new chances.

Finding new hopes.

Making new memories.

Being  a new me.


You will always be my favorite chapter in my book of life.

You will always be the answer for my duet.

You will always be my zing.


But, i know now, that you will always be just a part of my past.

The one who taught me so much to be who i am today.

The one who gave me so much smile on my face.

The one who made my heart beat fast everytime i see your name on the phone.

The one that, unfortunately, got away.


Yeah, it's hard to forget about it since you gave me so much to remember.

But i'm taking the first step.

And i'm dropping the last memory of you here.


Goodbye.
:)

Happily Ever After 2.0.

Chapter Three.

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Happily Ever After 2.0.


And Cinderella went to the Prince Charming's castle to live happily ever after.

And the kiss from Belle saved the Prince. And they lived happily ever after.

And Jasmine went on the magical carpet with Alladin to live happily ever after.


I love stories.

I do love them.

I'm just skeptic about their ending.

They always end with the happily-ever-after thing, where the sun sets in the background and the couple kiss each other.


Why?


I mean, come on.

Happily ever after doesn't have to mean you get what you want.


For me, being happy is a matter of choice.

If you can not be happy single, you can not be happy as a couple.

You don't need a Prince Charming or a Cinderella to make you happy.


Let's see what they've made us into nowadays.

Everyone is desperately searching for their happily-ever-after and being single is like being cursed by the witch.

Hello, you're only in your late teenage year.

Shouldn't you experience life more?

Shouldn't you get to know yourself first?

Shouldn't you get to know what you want in a boyfriend before you search for one?


Yeah, i know, being in love is such a wonderful feeling.

But, what you feel is just a crush.

Being in love is not a condition/

Being in love is a choice.

A choice to be faithful with just one person for the rest of your life.

Even our grandpa and grandma will agree, being in love is tiring.

It's not cute lovey-dovey season.

It's hard.


I'm not saying you all have to go register to the Celibacy Club now.

I'm just telling you the truth.


Happily ever after is not about love.

Happily ever after is about you.

It's about you live your life to the fullest.

It's about you being the best version of you.

It's about you doing the things you love.


And when you've done all that things, you'll realize..

Your Prince Charming maybe just right around the corner. ;)

Tears Patter

Chapter Three.

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Tears Patter.

For anyone who try to send away their love to someone who just gone away,

hey, this one's for you, guys.

Here, i stand alone.

Smile.

And pretending you are here.


Far, you are too far.

Wave.

And tell me everything's okay.


The tears patter, the only explanation of this longing feeling.

The tears patter, painfully starting this song for you.

No matter how much i beg, you were already gone.

And leaving with this tears patter.


Hard, this is too hard.

Cry.

I just can cry every night.



The tears patter, the only thing left from your sweet memories.

The tears patter, tell me how much i miss you.

No matter how much i beg, you were already gone.

And leaving with this tears patter.

Pass, this too shall pass.

Hope.

Hoping the tears will run dry.

Dear, J.

Chapter Three.

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Dear, J.


Dear, J.

Hello.

How are you?

I'm OK, not good but OK. Busy with stuffs as usual but i make time to write you this.


So, how's life?

Are you doing good?

Well, i know you are going to be great as usual. Busy with having fun with your job and making food-photos on your Instagram and all. Maybe you even won't have any time to check out this letter.


Even if you read it, you are going to be mad, maybe.

You're going to be mad because nothing is important in this letter. I remember you were mad at me for texting you when we got nothing to talk about. Hahaha. I wrote it just because.. Yeah, just because.


I have a cold. Not a big deal. I almost can hear you say: "Stop being such a baby.". Hahaha, yeah maybe i should stop being such a baby.

Eh..

I think i saw you again two weeks ago. At that Japanese casual dining. You were.. with someone. So i guess everything went pretty well for you. I'm happy with you!

Really, i'm happy seeing you being happy. I'm happy seeing you smile. I'm even happy when i remember you.


So..

I'm just wishing you good luck. For you and him.


Ok, bye, J.


I.

PS: Sorry because the letter is having so much watermark. I swear it's not tears.

Pause

Chapter Three.

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Pause.

But me, I’m not giving up. I’m sticking around to see what God will do. I’m waiting for God to make things right. I’m counting on God to listen to me. -Micah 7:7 (The Message).

Life is not a smooth trip. It's a bumpy journey.

Everyday has its own problems, bigger than yesterday's.

You always try to keep up but sometimes you lose the rhythm.

Then you break down and cry.

When you're on your lowest, look up to The Highest.

Our hands down means God's hand is up for us.

Our weakest time is just a time for God to do His part.

Look back.

His hands are never too late to pick you up.

Look around.

You are more than just blessed. You are favored.

Look up.

And say your gratitude.

Our mistakes don't define who we are.

Neither do our victory.

God's love do.

Whenever you fall, stop.

Stop figuring out the answer by yourself.

Stop pushing yourself to solve all problems.

Start to bend your knees and say thanks.

It's time for God to work.

It's time for you to pause and enjoy the miracles.

Blessings!