coffee shop blues

they said,
if a guy sits alone at a coffee shop
with his laptop on,
he must be heart-broken so bad
because nothing but a heart-break
can make a guy does it.

you knew,
the first time i saw you
was nothing special or worth remembering,
that's what i thought that time
because i never
intentionally planned to fall
in love again.

i knew,
the first time we had a chat
was a miracle,
because i never thought i'd have
the courage to talk to you, even for a simple hello,
but we finally talked.

everybody knew,
the day after we had a chat that night
was the day i realized that i fall in love
because no one ever made me feel so happy
as i was when i talked about you,
who once a total stranger for me.

i should have known,
that we are not meant to be for each other
because the way i felt was not the way you did,
the enthusiasm i felt about our chance to have a chat
was not your concern.

you should have told me,
that you were not seeing me the way i saw you
because your heart was given to someone else,
the one who gave it back to you
in pieces, like you did to mine.

they said,
that my heart will heal
eventually,
just take your time and see someone else
but i can't imagine
that i will see other the way i saw you.

and now you know,
why i spent days,
sitting here alone and
write this blues.

goodbyes, hellos

hey, readers!

udah lama banget gak ngetik di blog tercinta ini.. ooh, i miss you so much! :D

today, i'm gonna tell you what happened in 2011!

diawali dengan terbentuknya kelompok kecil atas inisiatif sendiri bernama Fire Burning yang beranggotakan Ci Priska, Tobias, David, Hana, Denis, dan saya sendiri. Kelompok kecil ini biasanya kumpul setiap Sabtu untuk sharing about life and faith tapi sekarang udah jarang buat bisa rutin kumpul karena sudah mulai sibuk. eFBers, that's what we called ourselves, itu banyak ngajarin pelajaran penting di 2011 seperti jangan biarkan Denis menyetir walaupun mobil dia yang dipake.. pokoknya, jangan deh kalo mau selamat sentosa sampai tujuan.. nah lewat Ci Priska juga saya akhirnya mengenal JPCC but i'm gonna save the best for last. ;)

juga saya akhirnya nyanyi di acara Paskah & Natal di Gereja Kristus Bogor. di acara Paskah, nyanyi bareng Ci Priska & Hana, di Natal, nyanyi sama Katherine. kedua pengalaman itu bener - bener pengalaman yang paling seru tahun ini! lewat pengalaman ini, akhirnya saya sadar kalo nyanyi adalah passion saya selain nulis. :D

2011 juga adalah taun dimana saya akhirnya mencoba memberanikan diri naik pesawat, bukannya memberanikan diri sih, lebih ke arah terpaksa. hahaha. walaupun cuma penerbangan ke Jogja yang cuma 1 jam lebih sedikit tapi rasanya saya berasa keren udah memberanikan diri keluar dari zona aman saya. :p

saya ditolak lagi masuk UI taun ini, yang sedikit banyak saya syukuri karena akhirnya saya sadar bahwa psikologi bukanlah jalan Tuhan ataupun karier yang cocok buat saya.

saya membaca 3 buku yang berhasil mengubah pola pikir saya dan filosofi saya tentang hidup. buku itu adalah: Unlimited Wealth, The Science of Luck, dan Mimpi Sejuta Dollar. buku pertama dan kedua adalah bukunya Bong Chandra dan yang ketiga adalah biografinya Merry Riana. lewat semua buku ini, saya akhirnya berani merealisasikan, bukan merealistiskan, mimpi saya lewat langkah - langkah kecil mulai dari sekarang. :)

taun ini juga saya belajar mengucapkan sampai jumpa dan terima kasih kepada seseorang yang namanya gak akan pernah saya lupakan. cuma dia yang bisa buat saya begadang semaleman biar message saya dibales loh, padahal gak pernah ada yang bisa sebelumnya. saya juga belajar gimana sakitnya patah hati gara gara dia. hahaha. mungkin memang udah ceritanya harus begini yah, but thanks a lot to JL1310. your name still makes my heart skips a beat loh, hahaha. ;)

saya juga akhirnya menjadi mahasiswa di LSPR! banyak temen baru disini, temen hedon sih kebanyakan bukan temen curhat. malahan saya yang jadi tempat curhat, hahaha. semoga saya bisa jadi berkat di LSPR. ;)

dan yang paling penting adalah: saya diperkenalkan sama JPCC! terima kasih yang sebesar-besarnya sama Ci Priska karena saya akhirnya menemukan tempat yang cocok bagi saya buat bertumbuh. sekarang saya udah tertanam di Oxygen JPCC dan jadi DATEr di DATE Apartemen Semanggi 2. saya juga merasa diberkati lewat Youth Camp kemarin, Masterpiece. bisa ketemu temen baru, dapet pelajaran baru, dapet revelation baru about myself, dan dapet direction baru about my life. juga lewat kelas COB dan Vision Partners yang udah saya ikutin, 2012 harus COL & COC! ketemu dan bisa ngobrol bareng (bahkan semobil!) sama Ka Sidney Mohede, my favorite gospel singer. dan ketemu keluarga baru di DATE Apartemen Semanggi 2 yang selalu bikin saya kangen sama hari Kamis. thanks a lot to my JPCC family! :D

banyak tawa dan banyak kesedihan juga di 2011 tapi saya bersyukur karena lewat semua hal yang telah terjadi, saya menjadi saya yang sekarang.

thanks, 2011! hello, 2012!
i am ready!

smile :)

hello!

it's been forever since the last time i updated my blog. well, i'm now a college student at the London School of Public Relations and i'm planning on taking Marketing Communication but you know what's with me and plan. we sorta don't make a perfect match.

and now i'm officially a part of jpcc family since i decided to be in the DATE, DATE Semaggi 2. and it's not a decision that i will regret for sure. :)

i'm super busy now. will talk to you later. :)

temporary home - carrie underwood

Little boy, 6 years old
A little too used to bein' alone.
Another new mom and dad, another school,
Another house that will never be home.
When people ask him how he likes this place, he looks up and says, with a smile upon his face,

"This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong.
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is my
Temporary Home."

Young mom on her own.
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go.
She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out,
Because a half-way house will never be a home.
At night she whispers to her baby girl,
"Someday we'll find our place here in this world."

"This is our temporary home.
It's not where we belong.
Windows and rooms that we're passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is our
Temporary Home."

Old man, hospital bed,
The room is filled with people he loves.
And he whispers, "Don't cry for me,
I'll see you all someday."
He looks up and says, "I can see God's face."

"This is my temporary Home
It's not where I belong.
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This was just a stop,on the way to where I'm going.
I'm not afraid because I know this was
My temporary home."

hibernate

WOW. Udah lama banget nih gak ngeblog sampe berdebu kayanya nih. Hahaha.

So many things happened. Catch up? Sure, you want to.

Okay, first, i failed again on UI's entrance test but this time i kinda did it on purpose. I knew now that i actually i never wanted to go to UI. I just wanted to go to the best school but it was stupid, i know, to think that the UI is the only best school in town. So i decided, and constantly hoping to another best school in Indonesia. I'll tell you when i'm officially the student at the school. :)

and i read some good books lately and it helped me realize what i should do. I'm reconsidering (AGAIN) to change my BIG PLAN. Here's the clue. The books that inspire me are Unlimited Wealth and The Science of Luck by Bong Chandra and A Gift From A Friend by Merry Riana. :)

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Write to you soon!